Life

Well today has been very humbling.  I failed a certification test that i needed to pass for my own confidence and also got a call that i didn't receive a job that i thought i had a good chance to get.  These two things along with financial issues put me in a bad place for about 12 hours and then i realized i have a family and i am the man of the house and need to man up and realize hey take the damn test again and ace the fucker.  Apply to a different place and get the job and do it better than anyone at my current place of employment ever thought of doing it. 

Then i realized all of that was going to be hard and a lot of work.  You see i have been the most motivated and hard working person the last 4 years and now i am just tired.  I have to fight through it and realize that this rough patch is just gods way of saying hey you've got a long way to go don't stop now and keep going.  I thought about quitting my College classes and now decided nah that's not going to happen. 

The reward will be worth it in the end and even though i feel jumbled i'll be able to concentrate on detailed learning later on down the road.  have a good night all and keep working towards your dreams they wouldn't be dreams if they were easy.